it’s making me emotional that people I’ve never met, people I haven’t seen since 2004, and people I’ve only met once or twice are donating to help my mom. like I’m literally in tears. I don’t think anyone understand just how much it means to me that they’re willing to help. my mom is such an amazing person and I wish I could give her the $100,000 she needs. the link has only been up for 5 hours and she’s already had $165 donated. including an anonymous $100 donation. it may not seem like a lot, but it really is. its so much, and the fact that people are even willing to give anything to help her is amazing and it means the world to me and her. I really just want her to get this surgery. I’m so sick and tired of seeing her in pain, I wish everyone could spend a day with her and see how brave and strong she is for still living as if nothing is wrong when she’s in constant agonizing pain. it’s come to a point where she’s in the ER at least once a week because of the pain. okay I’m done being emotional, so if you didnt see my earlier post and are curious as to what I’m rambling about… here’s the link that explains everything. and again, every little donation helps. every dollar adds up and gets her closer to the amount she needs. and I will never be able to thanks any of you enough for donating and helping.
here’s the link-
life is just too much. I start thinking about the future and getting old and dying and I get an anxiety attack. do you ever actually think about life? how money is just paper but it rules everything around us? how we work and work and work and then we die? how everything in life is so fucking weird? I don’t want to get old and I dont want to die and I need to stop thinking now.
I think for a while there I lost myself, being back with my friends tonight I remembered who I was. time to get back on track, and get back to being me.
for anyone who cares,
I’m back in california now, have been since march. although I do miss oregon and the beauty, fresh air and great food, I’m so happy to be back with my best friends. we recently moved into a new house and I love it. it’s a 1929 english cottage. it’s just perfect. I’m going through a rough spot at work, but I’m looking for a new job right now. I turn 23 in just under a month and that’s a little scary. we recently got a smart car, I love it haha. I’ve developed an obsession with one direction, don’t judge me you know harry styles is a sex god. I spend my days off work at universal studios or disneyland or just eating with friends. my life is still pretty much the same just with less nature and more friends.